Stay positive. Do it for yourself. Get support from AA. I've met many supportive people there and made friends in 15 months.
Don't let it stop you from doing good for yourself.
Can't control what other people do
Similar problems and relapsed did 13 years sobriety (bad #) just relapsed 6 months clean
They don't know the struggle and the will of power to maintain sober .. we all make mistakes .. let them be it's called ignorance . I'm proud of you 
STINKIN' THINKIN' get to a meeting the self pity will pass. Trust