No what you mean about AA, but am still trying it. God has done more to help me than me than anything else. I’m actually 51 days, starting to feel great, no cravings, much less ups and downs, and clear headed. I exercise a lot too.
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I'm sorry you're feeling that way. But nothing lasts forever. This will end!
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Maybe some inner work rather than sitting around waiting for God to help you is more beneficial this time around?
I get it. I’m a sad sack most of the time, fighting against my brain. It sucks. Working on yourself sucks. It’s hard. But I’ve come a long way from where I was a few months ago.
Support and external processing with others here can only go so far. Accountability + connections in person might be crucial for you. If you are not doing AA (or any other program) what are you currently doing to combat this?
Therapy?
Ya into reading?
I can offer some titles that i dig for this subject.
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Hey Janelle, I'm sorry you're feeling down. Slips suck, but you can own your sobriety. Small steps towards joy will get you there.
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I’m dealing with the same struggle today as well.
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We can do this girly 
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Hey Janelle: It sounds like you're doing better, no?
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Janelle, how are you doing right now?
As has been mentioned-we have all been there.
I have nothing against AA-while I know that alternatives exist. Various groups like Refuge Recovery ( hope I am getting the name correct )?
Belle Robertson who started “ tired of thinking about drinking “ was the initial resource that helped me back in 2014.
I have had many day ones.
Look up alternatives to AA if you need to while whatever you do, do not attempt sobriety alone.
Please keep reaching out to us. I will probably attend an AA meeting this week.
A year ago, I was disgusted with myself.
I played the tape forward, looked up a lot, read a lot, keep myself busy, go to meetings ( less than I probably should ).
I know it sucks. You reached out, Janelle.
If for nothing else, please give yourself major kudos. You could have chosen to not reach out - while you did and this community is rooting for you!!
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I’m at work so doing ok. Nearing time to get off.. that’s the”witching” hour. Planning to maybe go to a meeting tonight as I need to just talk.
So so glad I found this site and am able to interact with people. Thank you for thinking of me
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I am because my mind is occupied
Hey, at least you care about your poor actions. Many don’t. I can totally emphasize, I am completely Jekyll & Hyde when I’ve drank. The person I am when I’m using humiliates and destroys sober Kristin’s world.
I can share with you how I dug myself out and also share similar stories to remind you that you’re not alone.
Make small changes that you know you can do each day and show yourself what you’re made of. I promise it’ll help.
BE GENTLE AND KIND TO YOURSELF. You’re worth it and deserve the respect.
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Thank you and I would love to chat and hear your stories. God, knows I need all the help I can get right now
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Glad to chat sometime. I’m an extrovert and need people connections myself 
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Gurllll I swear you can get through this!! The nighttime really can be the worst. My go to coping mechanisms at night is to workout after work, eat something good, and watch a funny tv show or movie
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Can I send you a private message?
You got this…. One day at a time.
Yes
Thank you 
Don't beat yourself up over it. I've done the same after relapses. Fortunately I didn't give up on meetings this time around. Sounds like you know what you need to do. Your already asking for help and hopefully getting to a meeting. You can do this
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Ended up going to a meeting tonight after work.
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