Ellie: don’t beat yourself up! It takes so much courage to get back up & brush yourself off! You made progress by coming back here! Can you think back to what was going through your mind before it happened?
All we have is today! Thats all any of us have. One day you'll all of a sudden look back and you'll have 1000 days. Find yourself a meeting, find a sponsor pick up the phone. The most important thing I can do every morning is ask God to keep me sober and at night thank him for keeping me sober. You can do this. Don't live in regret shame or morbid reflection
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Great to see all the love and support in everyone’s shares. You’ve got Team Loosid cheering for you Ellie! You can do this 
It happens I'm on day 5 after 23 months an I've learn that I was trigger but coworkers this time an moved to a different job site but now I know what I need to stay away from an just the past be but the point is don't give up I'm sure most of the people on this site has relapse at some point but LEARN from the mistakes we have made so pick yourself up an get back on that wagon I believe in you an I know you can do it today is a new day
Don’t feel sad or guilty it’s normal. It’s hard to break bad habits or any habit. Takes practice. It’s like school you may not be good at a subject and fail a few times. The fact that you don’t give up you eventually pass.
Ellie, you are not alone. I have been struggling with relapses for many years. The positive thing is you are aware of the problem. In turn you keep trying. I know people really get obsessed with days and such which is fine but I think the bigger picture is that you know you are trying to heal.
Aa meetings. Aa. Org .we can not do this a lone.meet lots of people to help you.
It's ok. Just keep coming back. It's a very
Drank too much? You’re only human.... one day, and I pray it’s today, you will be on the path of happiness. Have faith