aa zoom meetings (i do secular) have been a huge help for me. 
If you want sobriety, you can do this. Try the Everything AA app - it has lots of good stuff on it and meetings online 24/7. If you need/want help- reach out.
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I am grateful for AA and I guess it comes down do you really want to quit and are you willing to go to any length to become sober for me. Support is available here, online in zoom, and in face to face meetings
I was really shy about asking for help too. I was 3 1/2 years sober before I finally got up the courage to speak out loud at an AA meeting and ask for help when I was feeling emotions I didn’t know how to process. I’m so glad I finally did, because I now believe I’m on the path to healing. I’m finally getting to the root cause of my alcoholism and all of its related behavioral issues. I’m getting better at listening to people around me and I’m becoming more honest with myself. My delusions are starting to melt away. I’m excited about recovery! Keep
in mind there are people who want to help at AA meetings - they are there waiting for you to just show up and ask for help. If you can do that much, I’m confident you will find the support you need.
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Take a breath and get to a meeting 
Hi Margaret
My heart goes out to you. I can definitely relate. I struggled with recovery for many years. I've been in-and-out of recovery most of my life. I currently have almost 8 1/2 years. In 2011 I relapsed after almost 9 years of sobriety. It was a big lesson for me. I came crawling back In 2014 and haven't looked back.
You're going to get a lot of input on this app pertaining to recovery. From my experience I truly believe that Alcoholics Anonymous is still the best program out there. You just have to remember that people come in all different shapes and sizes and you find all sorts of people at different meetings throughout the country.
There's a prescribed way of recovery in the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous. If you go to a meeting somebody will probably give you one. My advice is that if you are really serious about getting sober and staying sober, go to 90 meetings in 90 days.
If at that time you don't feel that you are as alcoholic as the rest of us are we will gladly refund your misery. On the other hand if you feel that you are an alcoholic and are in need of help you can try to get yourself a sponsor that will take you through the 12 steps.
The big book has a wealth of information in it regarding alcoholism. The 1st 164 pages are all about alcoholism and the rest of the book is filled with stories and testimonies from alcoholics.
Stepping in the right direction. Once your desire to stay sober is greater than the one to drink you can be confident in your journey. It’s time to get real with yourself, get honest and make choices that will benefit you long term. You’re already doin it…just don’t give up!
You do have sober support, here and at AA meetings. Talking with other alcoholics has helped me more than any therapist (cheaper as well). Everything AA and 24hour apps are great tools for me. I don’t talk to people every day either, but I know I cannot do it alone. If you go to meetings you will get numbers from people who care, and you’ll help each other stay sober. Hope this helps. Reach out anytime. Your not alone.
Hey Margaret: While I haven't read every response here, I sincerely believe that you can find a great amount of support at meetings.
Like many have said, lots of meetings, the way it is now with Zoom worldwide you can get to a meeting every hour if needed! My buddy who lost his brother coming up on 2 years ago was struggling after he passed and he and I went to 6 meetings in one day ending in Cape Town South Africa at Midnight my time, 9pm his time, and think it was 7am in Cape Town. This program works, if WE work it. Good luck and when the going gets real rough just take the day 5 minutes at a time.
Hey Margaret! You came to the right place. I know you are hearing many people say “get to a meeting” and the biggest reason I agree is that in the beginning it is super important to build a friend/support group of people who totally have been what you’ve been through. I personally went through the struggle of finally quitting for a LONG time (every time was the “final” time), until I admitted to myself how much going back through the hangover/anxiety/depression hamster wheel sucked and that going through a little bit of sobriety blah before feeling great was worth the experiment. Turns out, this experiment has a 100% success rate of feeling better if you push through it.
Download the Meeting Guide app (has a chair as a logo) and you’ll find tons of in person and online meetings to pick from. Give it a shot!
There is a great support network here and many of us have struggled at some point. Stay strong and reach out.
Welcome to the group! Look into methadone clinics in your area, they can point you in the right direction with counseling and medication for withdrawals other support. Deciding that you want to get clean is the first step, something that no one else can force you to do so congrats on that!
Don’t give up! It’s very difficult leaving a world we know and entering one we do not. The only thing I had to change was everything. An old timer used to tell me everyday, “If nothing changes, nothing changes”. If you need someone to talk to I’d be glad to listen.
Welcome! Look at all of the supportive friends you've made! One of the things that I wish I could get anyone struggling to realize is that they just need to ask for help. There's ane army waiting to have your back. I haven't read the plethora of posts before mine, but I'm sure many fantastic suggestions have been offered. My only advice is to try all of it and see what you like the best. Sobriety is the easy part, recovery takes work and its well worth it.