Kay, find an AA meeting in your area. You will have proof positive you are not alone, firstly. Secondly, they are bound and determined to help.
Des you said it. I don't remember who said it but it is correct. "1 drink is too much, 1000 is never enough" most of thought we could me included. We can never have 1 drink. I'm 134 days sober from the last time I tried. I recommend reading "Alcohol Explained " by William Porter. I'm reading it now. It's easy to read and understand. I been to rehab and they didn't really explain it like the book. You can do this. As for employment you might try waiting tables that way your not handling the booze that much. Thers begging for people in Jersey. 1 day at a time, slow and steady. I know you can do this. Want to talk you know where i to find me. Best of luck
You have to. I don’t know 1 successful sober bartender. They fail at sobriety. It’s just too easy to get fd up! What are you going to do when you start getting drunk drivings? If you don’t have one get ready to. Please do yourself a kindness and do something else. 
it’s that bad?
You are completely right…. I have to find a new job
This job isn’t for me and I can’t handle it
Don’t feel bad about it. You’re not the only one. I miss the money but it’s got spent on bs anyways.
If you can afford to, try to stay home right now. I know that might be impossible but that’s what I did to get sober and it worked. I kept trying to get sober while working. Yeah right. I was always messed up. I was exhausted.
We’re you a bartender?
I was and then I was an accountant for bars/restaurants, liquor stores, and dispensaries.
I don’t know what I’m going to do now.
How long have you been sober for ?
Not long. 4 months. It’s my longest time ever. I went to rehab this past December but I relapsed 3 times after until June 1st. I kept thinking I could have 1. Yeah right. That’s the sh*t I would tell myself at work. This cold turkey experience is a whole different kind of party. I’m so happy and I feel amazing. You deserve that. Don’t rob yourself of that gift. Life is so much easier sober. You sound like you really want to quit drinking and you should.
I’ll help you
I do want to quit…. I feel that in order to do so my job has to go
Since it’s the only time I drink…. I would really love your help because I feel defeated right now
And just over myself
No problem. I’m going to send you a friend request. We’re having a zoom meeting tomorrow at 5pm EST. It’s a loosid meeting. You should come.
I love too is there a link
Yes I can message you it
There’s a post from me on here somewhere about it as well.
Okay thank you
Hi Kay, it sounds like you probably need to leave your position. I was a bartender when I got sober as well. I didn’t drink daily, but when i did I almost always blacked out, I could never stop at one or two. The most important thing is to make your sobriety your top priority. If you put it as number one everything else will fall into place.