Yes, I have looked into Smart and will most likely attend a meeting this week. They don't have anything in person close to me in my area. Thank you.
Erika, I've been to hundreds of AA meetings over the past 3 years. And to be honest I don't go anymore. Why? Because I just don't get anything out of it. I live in a small town, even when I brached out, I would go and hear the same leads over and over again. Sooo, I watch YouTube videos of ppl in long term sobriety, that helps a lot, I also listen to podcasts of ppl in long term sobriety. I get more out of those than any AA meetings. As far as your THC use, listen, no one is doing your recovery but YOU!. Don't let ppl destroy what you've accomplished thus far. Stay strong and you do you, and they can do them. Period!
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I'm right there with you I haven't been to an AA meeting or an NA meeting since January of 2020 but since then somehow managed to pull off a year and a half of sobriety without going to a single meeting. Unfortunately since then started drinking again but just got off the booze again but this time around still enjoying my weed gummies and mushroom gummies as a substitute for alcohol.
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You can still be willing to do good for others and watch it manifest. AA is just a guide for living in love and usefulness. We all benefit from service to others.
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@erika393155 fair enough. I wish you luck. Come on back if your way doesn't work. We'll always have a seat waiting for you.
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Ive been a member of AA for about 2 years. And i can definitely see a change in what i thought it was about or for. The second half is much different than the first year.
Carrying the message isnât necessarily sponsoring. Its just sharing your experience strength and hope.
Most members work the steps everyday not just the once. Doing the steps repeatedly lets you learn more about yourself. Its not a course. Its a pathway to a new life.
Ive done other fellowships as well. aA offers more for me. More service opportunities and more meetings per day in my area. Keep trying new meetings and different fellowshipuwell
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Thank you for the support. I started EMDR today. I was reminded again that my drinking began from a place of trauma and shame. However, nothing, not even therapy, is going to change the fact that I am a blackout drunk. My life and others depend on me not drinking again. But yet, I am exhausted from saying "Hi, Erika, alcoholic" which just keeps the cycle of shame going instead of growing out of the shame and trauma and moving forward. Thank you everyone for your responses. I very much appreciate every one of them.
I also do Smart and love it. I do meetings twice a week.
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Suggestion work your steps and keeping goin to aa
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I stopped going to A.A a long time ago but I stopped going because people were judging me and criticizing how I do my recovery and members were saying stuff to me that no one should ever say to another person. I'm over 3 year's sober from alcohol and I'm over 6 year's off the hard drugs. A.A isn't for everyone
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Hello. I also donât need and didnât need help to quit drinking. Never had a sponsor and never started 12 step program. It wasnât for me. I went to AA meetings no more than a dozen times and wasnât for me either. Going on 5 years sober and going strong. Willpower is the word!!!
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It works for who it works for. Thatâs not me. To repeat their mantra, âtrying something over and over and expecting different results is insanity.â Ergo itâs insane to keep trying AA which isnât working. I am one who is better off with guidance but no doctrine to follow.
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