You'll be ok, just hang in there, watch some old classic TV or classic movie or something
Go for a hard run, and just scream that shi! Out. Eventually it will pass. I know the word Eventually sucks. Just keep it up, you'll think yourself later. Don't get rid of those 2 hard weeks you've put in. Cheering you on.
Whatever you're feeling or going through it's not bad enough to drink. Don't believe the big lie; at this time everything will be okay because it never is, is it?
Play the tape all the way forward. You might get some relief in the beginning but when it's all over with you will have more shame to carry around because you will realize that you accomplished absolutely nothing. Try some sweets to curve the cravings. It seems to help.
And to be honest with you, if you're having shakes as part of your withdrawals you should have actually checked into a detox center because it's very dangerous detoxing off of alcohol cold turkey depending on how much you drank everyday. If you're detoxing bad enough to have the shakes you probably have high blood pressure to go with that too. Shakes can show up after 3 or 4 days and last for 2 weeks on average.
There is no way I could have detoxed on my own without some kind of professional help. I experience confusion and DT's and I'm here to tell you that that is no laughing matter and one that I certainly don't ever want to experience again.
Also, if you start experiencing fast short breaths you had better call 911.
First things first, Don't give up. When I got sober, the first three months were the worst. Get phone numbers and use them any time you get the urge ( and you will) Go to a many meetings as you can, and talk to people about how you are feeling.
Stick with it, from my experience, recovery works. Do you have a sponsor? Also go to meetings, find ALL the women who are working a program, do what they do, go where they go. If you can, forget men, put your recovery first.
Go see a doctor.
The obsession to drink will be lifted. The DTs can take time. But you can do this! I was a raging alcoholic from 14 years old until my 30s. Now I’m 42 and I only have a short time off other substances but my obsession to drink was lifted a long time ago. And now just the thought of alcohol makes me wanna vomit. And vodka was my poison too. I feel your pain. Don’t give up. I’m just coming off a meth run. I think I been sober a month. I can’t keep track of the days. They all blur together and I have no brain cells left for a short term memory. I’ve done every drug there is to do. Not a one of them was worth it either. Not one.
Praying for you
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful. It is our light not our darkness, that most frightens us. Running away from fear only makes it grow stronger. You must face it head on if you want to move through it.”
Remember the hangover, remember that shi!!ty feeling? I'm only 3 plus months clean and I see my nieces and nephews coming of age and doing what 20 somethings do and I don't miss that at all?
You are going to feel better soon, give it a couple of weeks? Stay positive and give yourself a chance to heal. It took time to get addicted and it's going to take time to get Sober? Good luck and God Bless
Jenny that’s all part of alcohol withdrawals. Just my thoughts that maybe you should get on medication for withdrawals. I had to be medically detoxed and was put on drinking medication, which really helped me. Doing this alone is not always good. Stay strong, don’t take a shot it will only lead to more drinking. Reach out to others in recovery, try to go to meetings. . I found they helped. God Bless you got this IF you want it.