So my suggestion is stop, take a breathe and hold it till your chest hurts then let it go. Keep your eyes closed and now picture everything you worked for and accomplished in these last few months. Look in the mirror and see how beautiful you look now compared to who you did months before. Remind yourself of how much pain you went through in the beginning. How hard but rewarding it is when you start finding who you are. Come on you got this girl.. now breath again and wipe all that away and start over but worse than where you left off. Broken and shattered from a tsunami of waves crashing guilt and remorse into you. That's another option that is possible in your decision making. The choice is yours no one can convince you except yourself. I hope you are happy with the choice you have made is all I wish. Best to you and reach out to groups..
Just keep hugging your child if you are tempted to use. Picture “high momma” showing up at kids school performance…
Thank you everyone for all the good advice today has been very difficult for me and I needed this
You’re WORTH it! 
All I can do is bed you not too do it.! You accomplish going this long. You get high then what. You understand there adding Fednal to it making it harder to get off! Please don’t
I meant I’m begging you don’t! I don’t know you? I know what it dose to people regardless who it is. Don’t be a slave
Thank you so much I’m almost to 1 year and 4 months sober so I can’t give up
DON’T! You have supportive people here. Call a friend or hotline you talk and get yourself out of that funk
Amazing!!!!
Thank you I’ve been sober for 1 year 3 months and 26 days now I can’t say that it’s easy but it’s definitely worth it
Thank you beautiful
Stay with it, Cyrena!
We you and don't want to lose you
So happy you didn’t make the call
Don't do it!!! Once you allow that drug back into you...it's a rap@!..we have another run....yes....do we have another recovery?
STAY STRONG
God bless you💜
I know that once I begin entertaining the thought, I’m opening the door of no return. I did it after many years of recovery. It started with entertaining the thought, which set off the phenomenon of craving and I relapsed after decades in AA. We have to be so careful to keep that door closed. I was reminded by a friend when I came back home to AA that my mind is like a bad neighborhood—it’s dangerous to go in there alone. You did the absolute right thing by saying it out loud and letting people help guide you out of that dangerous place. I’m happy for you and it’s so obvious now that it’s what I should have done. Stay strong!
How are you doing?
What has always helped me in those situations is something very simple I picked up back in my NA days the first time I tried to get sober which is; Play the tape out. Meaning, think play it out step by step. Say ok, this is how I'm feeling, so let me play out how it will most likely go if I give it. Like first I'll have to hit some one up who I probably havent deal with in a long time and go through the meeting up, the waiting, then the transaction of buying and pray to god this isn't the time I get caught by the cops, ripped off, sold some BS, etc.... then keep playing the scenario out. Next it the using, and all the consequences that could follow.... maybe I'll od this time, maybe this will be the time I fall off the wagon and never get back on. Just play out the act of using from the initial though to the transaction to the actual use then keep going. Play out what happens next. Which is you know d.amn well you'll wake up the next day and be wanting more so you'll do it all over again and you have come so far, eventually luck runs out. We end up in jail, robbed, overdose, end up in situations trying to scrounge up money we dont have then begins the lying then the trust we've gained back during sobriety from people will slowly be gone again. And whos to say this time we wont lose those people again but for good this time. I know this sounds extreme to play out when just thinking of using one little ole time, but these are the facts and our reality as addicts. One time is never enough. Keep your head up and keep taking it one day at a time
I'm so grateful you made it.
Congratulations 