Sounds to me like your addiction is pretty intense to the point that you’re stealing from family for money. I highly suggest you go back to rehab. Why did you leave early in the first place? Going into a new career when you’re still in the place that you’re at likely won’t fare well for you. Get help. I wish you the best
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Go back to detox.
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Honestly hun, you need help more than a new career. You can get another career, but you can't get another you. Don't wait until your my age and still doing this. I am 5 months clean and sober, you have to take care of you.
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Put your recovery first. Many (myself included) find 12 step recovery to help more than treatment. There are meetings available everywhere full of people who understand where you are and know that helping newcomers is the best way for them to maintain their own recovery.
Prayers for you. 
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Matthew, unless you get yourself back to rehab and totally surrender, there is little hope for your future.
Jails, institutions and death are the options if we continue to use.
Humbling yourself and asking for help is so very important.
When out of treatment….. • •Seek out a home group of Alcoholics Anonymous with plenty of “no” nonsense old timers.
•Find a sponsor and get into working all 12 steps thoroughly. I used a workbook, my Big Book and 12 n 12.
I went to a meeting every single day for the first year, twice a day at the holidays. Never under 3 meetings a week and I’m going on 31 years of sobriety.
•Most importantly find the God of your understanding and make Him the center of your program. Prayer and meditation is so very important.
Long term sobriety is available to each and everyone of us. I encourage you to live and breathe recovery and just don’t stop. Prayers.
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I put my trust in God, he’s seen me through some very difficult times. You should take care of yourself first, everything will fall into place after that. I have God, my recovery, me then family. Keep the faith.
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First off, you're starting to be honest with yourself and that's a solid start.
My friend, I have moved 10+ times, gone to new jobs, bought new cars, changed my diet, exercised, etc. etc. and NOTHING can outrun active addiction. It will move there before you even arrive, start your new job on your behalf before you even sit in the chair, and be more fit and prepared for battle than you at all times... UNTIL you kick it. You need real professional help (we all did).
You're bleeding out, stop buying band-aids.
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I ended up going to jail and while I was in jail. I read a book that had profound meaning to me called a million little pieces. I found my sobriety in that book when I got out. I did 2 to 3 meetings a day and I stayed in a halfway house. I really wanted to get sober. And I just gave myself over to my faith and before I knew it. I had 6 months then a year, and I'm now celebrating 11 years. It is possible, but you do have to surrender the fact that you can't do it alone. You need to find some sort of thing to believe in whether it be a higher power or anything, really even if it's a tree in the forest, it's up to you as long as you believe in it. And you believe that it will help you get sober. It will work. Good luck to you.
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I am so glad that I went to residential after rehab. I didn’t think that I needed to at the time but I now know that it was the best thing for me. The money and career will come. It is a relatively short time compared to a lifetime.
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If rehab is not affordable, you must read the BIG BOOK go to NA, CA, AA meetings and you MUST talk! Get a sponsor do the 12 steps, seek councelling/therapy will help as most addicts have internal trauma, wheather childhood trauma or any kind of trauma but focus on becoming the better version of yourself and 1st step is staying clean. Focus on not blaming yourself for the disease. Focus on the next 24. If rehab is affordable then you must go TODAY! Do not wait. Do not go after last hit. Do not delay sobriety for that last hit may kill you. Go now! Stay strong, you got this
Find a long term one that has 30 days impatient. Program to 3 months in out wear you work Joliet IL has one called stepping stones great place with people who really care I'm about to go back up there. Just to get away from wear I'm from it's a struggle every day you can do it though
Recovery should come first then a job. And detox is a good idea that's how I have stayed clean
Matthew, this was a few days ago. How are you doing? You’re worth so much more than your addiction is allowing you to have and to be. You can do this!
Iam sitting in a 6 month program right now I knew 28 days wasn't gonna be enough to kick my 25yr dope habit just keep trying and don't give up one day or one minute at a time good luck and you can do this
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Push through it! You got this! Going cold turkey is rough but if the sober life is what you want for yourself it's all up to you and your decisions. stay up, stay positive and don't give up!
Vitamin C will get the meth out of your system. The faster you detox, the less you will crave it. Taking vitamin D3 helps with cravings too, of any kind, I don't remember the fancy terms.. take vitamin D3 with K2 and it will help absorption. Seems silly but it's amazing how vitamins help. It's helped me so much.
Check yourself into a long term rehab, 28 days ain't nothing really if your habit is that bad. It took me 2 years in prison and 8 months at a long term place to finally get myself together.
Shoot me a message man. Been where youre at many times. If you wanna chat let me know. I've struggled a lot. I kicked a 15 yr on and off again IV Heroin/Cocaine and eventually fentanyl addiction. Been off opiates for 4 years. I relapsed on other stuff and am now 5 months clean from everything again. Before that I had 19 months never thought I'd even still be alive
I agree with the masses brother go back to rehab I know from experience. I did the work thing and just nursed my addiction even worse cuz I had more money. Save yourself a lot of life and get yourself right THEN go to work you'll enjoy that money so much more. Good luck
Your honesty is great this takes time and be kind and gentle to yourself. We are our own worst enemy more often than not. WE don’t do this alone. Join a group get active baby steps one hour at a time. Lots of prayers always