The bliss of eternal uncertainty

Mental Health
#24

No, I’ve been to a few and it just didn’t feel like it was for me. First one I went to was ok but i don’t know it just lost its luster after a few meetings, same with the others. May be the adhd.

But yeah. Not into the whole religion thing, went to an agnostic one. whole meeting was based off/had the vibe of laughing at religion. And it’s like ok give it a rest, we get it.

A bunch of people from an extremely expensive rehab facility. Like an uncanny amount. 4 or 5 from the same one lol

I dunno, not something I would ever stick with. There are some amazing people at meetings but :man_shrugging:t5: am I gonna keep going? Probably not. Not much incentive to keep going back.

#25

Yeah, I hear you. in my own experience, I had a problem with God because of all the things that happened to me as a kid and as an adult. And I thought in the beginning it was an religious program.

But I found out through my own experience. It is a spiritual base program which spiritual principles not religious.. And yes, I hear people speak of God here and there, but it is repeated through the steps a god of your own understanding. The meetings have truly saved my life, and the steps have changed my life. I wish you lived near me. I could take you to some of the me I go to. They are pretty amazing and the people are really amazing.. And yes, the steps have taught me how to become more spiritual. And that has got me to become more religious..

The most amazing thing that has happened is now I am his father with two beautiful children. And those two beautiful children have never ever seen an alcoholic drug addict father through the spiritual principles. They have changed the old man I used to be.. Someday you will give it another chance. The one thing that I know is when I came in and I had a problem with.. they told me I could change the word God to anything I wanted when I first came in God stood for gift of desperation. Then the word got changed to good orderly direction which was the steps and traditions. Then God also forming became a group of drunks. God also became a group of drug addicts.. and those were powers greater than myself.

So I hope and I pray that if you have the wellness to stop drinking or stop drugging. That you give the room another chance. And find someone who can take you through the steps.. I am no longer the old man I used to be.

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#26

It's so so so so hard but staying in today is a magical trick to help manage this kind of stress hun! I struggle with it still and reach out to my higher power to guide me and I just hand my will over to Him over and over again... it makes life so much simpler! I have ADHD along with a big old heap of other mental illnesses and that stuff is no joke. It can be seriously jarring. You have to have a tool box of coping skills. For me, it's prayer, writing, meditation, yoga, solitude in nature, cold showers. You find what works for you my friend. Best of luck :heart:

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#27

This is true. I feel like time is just ticking away and if I keep “not worrying about it” then I’m gonna stay in the same position forever. I guess I always figured life was gonna just work itself out and/or I was gonna find a girlfriend who would just yell me into getting my life together :joy:

#28

How are you feeling right now Trevor???

#29

…oh my!
You must be
Y O U N G, Trevor!
:grin:

#30

…time will tick away…whether we worry or not.
Sure you know-
Worrying does not really help.

I am talking about focusing on goals, outcomes - to the point where nothing productive is taking place to actually take action.
And, or - one ends up missing out on present moments.

We really cannot control a single aspect of life, meaning we put the effort in…and sometimes, things obviously do not work out.

( Well. I guess we CAN control some aspects / I.e., like the Serenity Prayer, stuff like that-notes ).

I personally find this hustle culture and how so many people worship the whole “ cult of busy “ to be unhealthy.
Yeah.
I work and pay taxes, all of that stuff…while I could be dead later on today.
I mean, hopefully not the case…while people are dropping like flies around me. So. It is not outta this question.

Point being:
Don’t spend so much time focusing on a future which may never even take place.

…remember to just look up and take in this present moment!

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#31

Noo lol gonna 30 in a few months :joy:

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#32

…dood.
You are
Y O U N G.
:grin:

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#33

Yeah yeah you’re always “young” to someone lol

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#34

Thanks Traci! I appreciate that. Sorry I forget about this app all the time and the notifications dont go away till you click them all lol

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#35

Feeling alright, sorry it was hard to keep up with the notifications lol. That’s amazing Troy and I’m really happy that everything worked out! As far as staying sober yeah that’s not truly something I struggle with on a day to day basis. Sure, there’s sometimes when I miss smoking weed. But I’m on an SSRI medication, and THC interferes with that medication metabolizing properly so :man_shrugging:t5: Normal to me is way more important than weed lol

But thankfully I was such a different person when I was a drunk than I am today. I still look back on those days and think how on earth did I find that enjoyable or as a solution to anything?