I’ve had set backs in my past and I know how that feels! Hang in there and keep trying😊 Do you have sober supports that you can reach out to? I find talking to people really helps and there’s no shame, we’ve all been there.
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Don’t beat yourself up or judge yourself. Bc relapsing is what we do. You don’t have to stay down when you fall. It gave me the gift of desperation. I relapsed for ten years. I’m now clean and sober for five years. I lost my wife suddenly a year and a half ago, and and we were in the program together. She died suddenly unexpectedly. If I was gonna relapse I know it would have been worse and I don’t know if I would have made it back. The grace of my higher power who I choose to call God and the love and support of my AA family and my family of origin made it possible and God did most of the heavy lifting. It’s likely the hardest thing you will ever do but you’re in the right place and you’re worth it. Prayers and mega hugz. (Ps I am a Florida State University graduate so welcomes to Florida dear!)
As a chronic relapser that HOPEFULLY got it right for now, or today, you can't beat yourself up! That's why I kinda dislike tracking sobriety. So much "time" and then boom! Back to 1!? But the first day is always the opportunity for the first of forever. Dwelling in my experience just makes me wanna drink/use more. Be kind to yourself 
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