Hic locus est, ubi mors gaudet in vita adiuvando
“This is the place where death rejoices in helping life “
A motto of many morgues or wards of anatomical pathology.
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Jack Daniel’s, José Cuervo, Jim Beam, progressive demons providing problematic solutions for my multiple mental health issues.
hic locus est ubi mors gaudet
“this is the place where death delights”
The streets, under a bridge, an abandoned building or house, and isolated for days at a time in a motel waiting to connect.
These were the places where death thrives, sometimes quickly, and in my case, ever so slowly.
Had a very good meeting with my care manager at CHCS.
Have a group therapy session scheduled for tomorrow.
They scheduled me to begin weekly individual sessions as well in the coming weeks. 
I should be feeling great but I’m not. Still stuck in the muck in my head dreading my decisions.
Is this the proper path?
If I’m doing something right why does it feel all wrong?
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I pray that I may have faith's look.
I pray that by faith I may look beyond the now to eternal life.
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"Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions." - Dalai Lama
