Im 10 days sober today. Whenever i relapse and make it to day 7 i always think thank god. Drinking is a nightmare, withdrawals are a nightmare, and gut rot is a nightmare. I watch drunk body cameras all the time and try to visualize myself in the drunk persons shoes and i dont think i could cope with myself if my lowest point was on body cam like that.
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Congrats on double digit recovery! That is something in my book! Yes, if I can bring to mind the last time I was loaded or how ugly it is when I see people use the way I did, I lose any craving or desire to do that again! Problem is I have a disease that likes to tell me I don’t have a disease. I will get to remembering the good about getting drunk or high and completely overlook the pain and misery that always follows the good stuff. Every minute that goes by in this fantasy land increases the likelihood of another relapse. I hope I stay plugged in and never again get to that point where using is a good idea!
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Great job on 10 days! Keep up the great work!
Well said! This disease loves to have you remember the good times (which were nonexistent by the end) and completely forget the constant pain and misery.