Today was pretty rough emotionally. I don’t even feel like I have the energy to go into as much detail as I usually do. I noticed a lotttttttttt of posts from friends/family that included alcohol. Probably a sign that I need to continue to decrease the amount of time I spend on social media. Definitely just got me thinking about how much I miss drinking, & then I have to go through the usual spiel. My brain wants me to miss it & drink again. I force myself to recall the copious amounts of destruction to my health, finances, personal relationships, & self esteem. I’m feeling a little bit more solid as I wind down for the evening, & I made sure to stick to my routine, even though I was feeling off. Cooked dinner, did the dishes, took out the trash, did my work-out, made my routine list for tomorrow, and wrote my evening gratitude. Tomorrow is a new day, & everything about today wasn’t negative. I’m still VERY NEW in my recovery, & I need to be PATIENT & KIND to myself. One step, one moment, one day at a time.
On a slightly more positive note, I actually ASKED FOR HELP from a friend because I couldn’t figure out how to out my new tv stand together, & it looks so terrific. My apartment is really starting to look like a home. Trying to focus on the positives!
