12 days in. Took my 1st grader to a movie at his school. Gym full of bat sh*t crazy kids stepping on me, screaming incessantly. One kid actually tried to pee on the school mascot. I looked around and thought “you’d have to be lit up like the 4th of July to deal with this”. Then the realization hit me. The only reason I could and was coping was being sober. Not drunk. Not hungover. Felt good to be at peace in the midst of chaos. 
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Crazy how that works isn’t it!? Now that I am sober I have the pleasure of being present for those family events. I get to go watch a group of 7th grade kids sing terribly off key at the spring concert. I get to be there to watch a group of 6th graders try to saw completely through violins and destroy the masterful works of Bach. I am awake enough to sit for 3 hours and watch the longest dance recital in the history of recitals. And I wouldn’t change it for anything! I now have the mind enough to do these things.
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In that moment, in that space, there was a sort acceptance and reverence just being present. I’m not Jedi-sober yet so kudos to you for the work you’re putting in. I can only imagine how it brightens up your children to see their father in the audience smiling, not performing a frontal lobotomy on himself.
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Yeh, for me there are dozens of micro-realizations that come every day. It’s not only the time being drunk that you retrieve, but also the countless hours of haze from all the side affects that you didn’t even know were there. I finally feel “present” in all my dealings.
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Preach.