120 days sober today 
itās been difficult, but Iāve never, in my life, felt so much peace. My sponsor, grand sponsor and I are going over my 5th step tomorrow. Iām a bit nervous to get so vulnerable with two women I havenāt known very long, but the first 4 steps have already done so much for meā¦ Iām excited for the healing Iāll get from this next one and the ones to follow.
I went to a chakra meditation class today, and sobbed so much into my mask lol. I grew up a pastorās kid, so the fact that Iām even open to learning about spirituality is a miracle. But the meditation Iāve been doing in the mornings and this class Iāve joined have allowed me to feel closer to my higher power than ever before.
Things are not perfect. I still feel depressed and afraid, just not nearly as much as before, and less and less everyday.
KEEP GOING. Keep going to meetings, keep sharing, keep reading, keep meditating. Trust that this idea is greater than yourself and give yourself to it. It really does get better.
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