13 years old

Struggling Help
#1

I don't even know where to begin I've been on pain medication since I was 13 years old before that I had a lot of medical problems which I still do but it goes to develop a pattern. I joke that I'm broken. But in reality I am I think we all are broken it's just a matter of putting ourselves back together and the people we meet along the way I'm struggling to figure out where to go what kind of meeting how to do it it's my first time never done any of this before I feel like an idiot sometimes. But at least I'm trying I'm trying one day at a time one second at a time one moment at a time and just have to breathe

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#2

Please don’t feel that way. Everyone started where you are. You don’t say how long or if you in sobriety now but start off with beginners meetings. There are several on line if you search. There is nothing better that a great group of recovery friends. If you want you can private message me anytime.

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#3

Thank you so much I just feel so lost most of the time trying to figure out which end is up

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#4

I was the same way. I still get lost sometimes but this is so much better. I watched my brother die in front of me the color of a lemon. Another special person was found dead in his car, he bled out from his alcoholism. Please stay strong. Reach out. Anytime. Do you mind if I ask how much time you have?

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#5

Honestly I got my first coin yesterday but I've been working on myself for a while I kind of started 12 stepping my life and then I had all these people die around me that some of which I was taking care of and my mother is not well and has her own issues so I think I've been doing it for a while but I actually got my first coin yesterday was my first meeting

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#6

Welcome so now you go for the next coin :pray::heart:. Just remember you need to do this for you and just by what you just said wouldn’t you rather be sober and alert and be there for your mom. :heart::heart:. You got this. Message anytime. I remember when I got my first coin I was so proud I couldn’t wait to get the next one. :heart::pray:. May sound crazy but I carry they with me so I remember that I Don’t want to go back. I am here whenever you want to chat. My dream after a little more sober time is to be a recovery coach. I love talking to people in recovery or trying to get into recovery. :heart::pray:

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#7

Congratulations on starting your journey and welcome to the community!

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#8

THE DREAM. THE STRUGGLE. AND THE PRIZE. TRUST THE PROCESS OF RECOVERY AND YOU WILL HAVE IT. Be kind to YOURSELF. Be willing to Forgive yourself. It is a DAILY process.

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#9

K we learn our limits in life . I'm just finally moving forward. You know I'm so excited and introspective and looking outside in rt now but at the same time outside in. I feel alive for the first time in a long time. I'd love to stay in touch. Thanks

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#10

Thank you so much. I'm learning so much. Every moment I feel I'm living & amazing at the same time

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#11

Thank you that's all I keep saying. "Let's check in see where we are going _ where we came from & figure out who we all are alone & together"

#12

I believe we can also private chat. I private chat with a couple on here. Stay strong

#13

I sent you friend request then I believe we can private chat.

#14

Please read This Naked Mind by Annie Grace. It’s an excellent book about quitting by showing yourself compassion. She also wrote a book called The 30 Day Alcohol Experiment … both VERY good !!!

#15

Thank you I will definitely read both of those I appreciate any help that I'm getting right now I kind of feel like we all have to be there for each other and help each other through and maybe we'll all get through it together you know at least I hope so but it's a journey not a race

#16

I hope it's okay I sent you a friend request

#17

I added you and I sent you a message back

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#18

Ok, sure! That sounds great :+1:

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#19

I got it and responded :heart::heart:

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