Hi, i’m william. i’m 14 years old and i just got back from a 10 week rehab. In order to stay home i have to be sober and well, i haven’t done so well honestly. I have been home about 2 weeks, and i relapsed on my first night at home. I have been sober for 3 days and i have court tomorrow to see if i’m let off probation or not. i’m so worried that i’ll get drug tested because i really really don’t want to be sent away again. Right now i’m struggling, i really want to use and self harm but i know i can’t, i honestly have no clue who i am and i just want to love my self . i want to be happy
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William using won’t help you tomorrow. Sometimes you will have to swallow the big frog and take the consequences of your actions. I have been to jail many times and it sucks but using got me there. You are just starting your life this to shall pass. Sending you prayers
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Hey William! Glad your hear!! Coming home is very difficult whether your 14 or 41. Falling right back into place at home doesn’t sound like a good idea. What are your recovery plans now that you’re home? Can you do an outpatient program? As much as you want to move on and get back to life, I think more daily support and structure would be a wonderful idea. Remember you have choices. Choose sobriety first.
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honestly i wanted to do an outpatient program but my parents haven’t got me in one yet, i told them that when i’m home i’m going to need support or a group daily but i don’t know, i’ve had therapy twice in the time i’ve been home
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Keep pushing and advocating for more help and support. This is a battle, and we all need help.
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thankyou man.
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Hi William! What tools did you learn at the rehab you went to? Why is it that you don’t love yourself and are not happy? It’s a lot of work to be happy and love yourself but you have your whole life ahead of you! I am a School Counselor so I understand a lot of the struggles kiddos face today and my dear brother passed away a few months ago at 36yo from drugs :(. He started at 12yo and was involved with the law from a young age. He always said he wished he took it more seriously back then but I also believe the system failed him! Please, don’t be another number 
. I struggled with alcoholism myself and depression/anxiety but I’ve finally dug myself out of the hole after a lot of work. The most important questions are- do you want to be happy, do you want to stop using, and will you stop hanging out with friends that are a bad influence? At your age those 3 tend to be a package deal. Lastly, I want to say I am super proud of you for finding this app & reaching out for support (although I don’t know if there is an age limit- hopefully they don’t kick you off)! Please be careful with who you talk to on here- especially DM’s and do not give out your number! You are welcome to message me as well though but I will await your friend request if you’d like to talk more. Praying for you! You can do it!!!!
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Hi William. I have a Wil at home your age. I have been through rehab three times. But this last time I actually used the tools that they gave me to stay sober. It has been 2 crazy years but worth it. I had to get rid of all my using friends. Have new places to play. And new hobbies and loves to make. If you do the same thing as before rehab nothing changes if nothing changes. Do you have supportive parents and friends and people to raise you up? If not find those people and be accountable to them. You can do this. You know you can do this!!’
Glad you are here William. Keep coming back
Hi William. Welcome I’m glad you’re on here sharing. It’s a good place.
Hey man hang in there to be 14 years old coming out here like this and admitting you have a problem is nothing to be ashamed of not a lot of people would do that don't make the same mistake I did I was 14 I didn't stop until I was 34 or 20 years later you have your whole life ahead of you I'll be praying for you brother
It’s hard man… Just keep at it
I was 14 when I started using and it got me no where but homeless, overdosing, losing everything. It doesn’t help you. You are so strong for even getting on here and admitting all of this!! I promise life gets better, and there’s so much beauty in being clean.
I too was like you, if the thought came into my head I thought I had to act on it—Not!!! We have choices, your life is worth living even if you do have to “swallow the frog”—when messed up we can’t see and w/o giving ourselves a chance at a sober life we will miss the best life!
A man takes a drink, a drink takes a drink, a drink takes a man…
Don’t let that be you dude, we need you!
Good luck, get a sponsor, work the steps, go to a 
loading of meetings and be there for the next sufffering addict!