Well, I'm doing it.
I was really scared I was gonna die, but I've now had all the blood work and am doing well. Apparently super healthy.
I definitely WANT to get that feeling, but am terrified to die.
So, each time it comes, that fear is there. I know that's not a great reason, and a slippery slope, but it's what's doing it right now.
I'm walking every day to get my head clear, I'm eating as healthy as i can. There a lot going on, but there always will be and not having a clear head isn't going to change that or make it better, so.... Sober I stay.
I hope next time I write, I can say, I don't want that feeling anymore.
Everyone, have a great day!
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Fear got you through 14 days, and that's nothing. A lot of people relapse waiting for the 'right' reason to show up. You're walking, eating well, staying present; that's the work, regardless of what's driving it. The why can shift later. Right now you're doing it, and that's what matters. Be proud of yourself!!
You can do this friend!!!