14 days clean

Recovery
#1

My girlfriend and i checked into detox 2 sundays ago. She was found unresponsive the next morning :kissing_heart::heart::sleepy::broken_heart: im overwhelmed im still in shock, but i am in the program we chose alone with all of her belongings
Im in shambles, and im torturung myself, watching videos of me telling her that she has to get help. Im venting on social media. i want to blame staff for not being there for her she left me here alone and i am having all these emotions on top of it all im lonely and feeling guilty about being the man she loved me for being in the first place

Just logged off fb thsnks for letting me vent..

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#2

True to thy self, stick and stay.

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#3

It can feel shocking and difficult now, but as time goes on it does get better. I hope the paramedics were able to save your girlfriends life.

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#4

Unfortunately she passed away 8/18

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#5

Yes im in no condition to make decisions

#6

You can come out of this and be there for the next person who goes through this very situation. Its up to you to carry the message, for her, and every other person suffering from this disease. Ive buried so many people over this thing. Im numb to it at this point. Im sorry for your loss, but please choose recovery.

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#7

Together you had a dream. You decided to get sober together. Keep your promise to her. Get sober and be the best version of yourself for her. She loved you and now she’s your guardian Angel. She wanted sobriety for you. Do it for her. :heart:

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#9

There is a plan keep fighting for your self and for her

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#10

My heart goes out to you​:heart::disappointed:!
I am deeply :cry: sorry for this great loss!
Honor her by staying in this sober journey…one breath at the time!:hugs::heart::heart::heart:

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#11

My condolences, but she want you to get better.

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#12

You’re exactly where you need to be. I know it’s heart shattering right now but I hope you see that’s the reality of addiction and if you go back out you might just find yourself in the exact same situation or worse. Get clean and live on for her. Do the thing that she wasn’t able to do in love of her. You can’t do anything for her lock in addiction. You can honor her clean and that’s exactly what she would want you to do. Stay put, lean on the people there, let those feelings out, then get up and do exactly what I know you can do.

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#14

This one hurt to read. I’m so sorry for your loss. :sob: None of this is your fault. I don’t have easy words, but I do know staying clean right now takes courage most can’t imagine. Please don’t keep coming back. And she’d want you to keep going.

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#15

And i do choose recovery just for today. I am still unlearning self-destruction. Thank you all for your motivation.

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#16

Kebbo, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. It's amazing how you are still staying strong amidst your loss. :disappointed: Keep shining bright and pushing on. :innocent:

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#17

My condolences

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