14th day sober. I used to binge 14 days straight forgetting my responsibilities, acting like everything was fine only to be sitting on my couch crying over thoughts, music and people I’ve hurt.
I’d drop my kids off at 8:30am make my pit stop at the local liquor store pick up my shooters and two beers.
At times I’d go 3-4 days w out eating- the alcohol consumption took over and I only wanted to feel the numbness. I lost my job, friends, sold my house , driving privileges. I was lying to my mom saying things are great. I hated myself for how I treated my body and mind.
I am normally a happy go lucky guy, very involved w helping and listening to people in need, not realizing I was the one in need. I’d take my sleeping pills that often wouldn’t work and upset me off b/c i would sleep in til’ 1pm forcing myself to get out of bed to be productive. I have not taking anything for the last 4 days and I feel wonderful before I’d be up at 4:20am because my liver would absorb all the sugars and wake me up sweating and shaking. I’m not sure how long this sobriety will last but I do know I don’t want to feel the way I used to. Before I step foot off my bed I thank god for another day sober and to continue blessing me down the right lane. Pray for me to get this evilness out of my body for good. Wishing everyone a sober day.
