I remember when the first week felt like an eternity. Going goth dancing Saturday night to celebrate my 40th birthday (a couple days ago). Can drive myself now that I'm forever sober. It really is a matter of will, habit, and who you surround yourself with. I have a desire to never drink again, I am practicing not drinking, and I am surrounding myself around family and friends only who know me as sober or becoming sober.
The posts I read in here remind me of AA meetings back in the day. Horror stories enough to make me remember it can and will get worse with time if I return to that dark world. We're never InsertName1.0 - we are always a new chemcial makeup every time we use. We evolve to InsertName 3.0, InsertName 4.0, and so on, becoming worse and worse. A doctor once told me you can make a rat an alcoholic if you keep feeding it alcohol on a consistent basis. That made me feel better. Habit. Let's make better ones.