2 Days ago I attempted suicide. I have no support system. I have over 7 years of sobriety but it all hits me that even thou I go to meetings I have no one. I am struggling as to what to do.
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I’m so sorry. You are loved. You are needed here. Keep trying to find your purpose. I suggest keep going to meetings and reaching out to members. Most of us have been right where you are and very empathetic to your mindset. You are never alone as long as you keep reaching out.
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Hang in there. Maybe try a different meeting or some online meetings too. Your social circle shifts getting sober that is where the getting out of your comfort zone makes a huge difference. Support is out there…
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Do you have a sponsor
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I have been in this same spot and then drank due to it. Get into a zoom meeting and share. There are people going through the same thing right now that might have a tip that suits your situation. No matter what. DONT DRINK
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Feel free to message me anytime.
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Mark, I’m sorry that your going thru this. Our life in sobriety is a gift. I suggest you go to a in person meeting meeting and share what you posted here. You may help someone else and receive help at the same time. Remember, God doesn’t make junk, your experience strength and hope of 7 years is priceless to your fellows.
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Yes I do
Mark, do you know about 988, the suicide hotline?
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Yes, I lt was a fleeting attempt.
Sorry to hear. Wish I knew what to say. Glad you are reaching out somewhere. I’ve lost several friends to this, unexpectedly. Just know we care about you buddy.
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Bro! WTH is going on? Accept my request and dm your number! I miss you man! You are amazing and helped me so much! You have no idea I guess, how much you help others! Love you brother!
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I’m so sorry to hear you are going through this … you are not alone .. Maybe a therapist can help … BetterHelp has therapists at a reasonable rate …
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Sorry you are faced with all this Mark.
If you're wanting to commit suicide you're obviously not feeling very good about yourself. I'd like to ask you a question. You say that you've been sober for over 7 years. Have you actually gone through the 12 steps with a sponsor or have you simply just been sober for 7 years?
If it's the latter, then I would say that's part of your problem. You see when you take a horse thief and you get the horse thief sober, what do you have? A sober horse thief.
Do you see my point?
I'd be willing to bet that it's the ladder and you've never actually been through the steps have you? People that go through the 12 Steps don't usually have a desire to commit suicide. They usually have a desire to help others in order to get out of themselves.
So tell me what's been going on? Am I right or am I way off?
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I am here.
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I have gone thru the steps and have sponsored. I work a program I'm just idk maybe exhausted, maybe lack of self care no idea
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Mark, I’m so glad your attempt, however fleeting, was not successful.
Without knowing your story, I can only tell you what’s working for me. Every day I remind myself of step 1. I can laugh at how comically pathetic I was. I remember step 2. Surrender. My way was abject failure. Gotta try something new. Step 3. Ask for help. I also keep up with 10-12. When I’m wrong, I own it and fix it. I do my morning routine. I ask for guidance. I remind myself what happens when I try to run the show.
Finally, and especially when I’m feeling sh*tty, I help people. Here, at work, in the grocery store, or a sponsee, in a zoom, wherever. Helping others helps me more. And there are always people who need our help desperately.
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I don't know you personally but I saw the picture of you and your dog and your dog would probably miss you so don't try to kill yourself.
I think it's great that you've been active in the program. Maybe there's other things you should be doing in your life besides getting involved with the program. What about Hobbies? Do you have any? There are many options here.
You can learn how to play a new instrument like piano or guitar. What about learning a particular martial art? What about going up to the airport and doing what's called a discovery flight?
I'm a general aviation pilot and I can tell you it's a very exciting event flying an airplane for the first time. I highly recommend that you check that out. It would be just what you need to get yourself motivated to move forward and do something with your life.
There are lots of other options out there. You just have to figure out which one is right for you.
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Have you looked for a local church? It might seem cliche, but a good church community is a family. We need you brother.
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