Did i get it the first try? No.
But i tried again, and harder - doing more than i did the first time, and it stuck.
2 years in and i still feel like if I dont do more in the program, i might not get to keep my sobriety.
Today sucked at work, with my past being brought up as a reason there was an issue at work. Did it make me consider a drink? Yes. So I made sure to call my sponsor and go to a meeting.
And now im learning to have the bravery to know i gave my best in the situation, and it is enough, and it will be ok, if i surrender to god (as i understand him).
It works, it really does.
