Today, I am grateful that it has been 2 years since my last drink! How did I do it? Only God truly knows that answer, but I will do my best to explain. I was completely destroyed mind, body, and soul. I wanted to die, and I fantasized about dying just so I didn't have to feel all of the pain anymore. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without feeling sick at the shell of a man I had become. I came to AA, bc I was out of options. I could always stop drinking, but I couldn't STAY stopped!! The smallest of things would be an excuse for me to drink. Excuses were lies that I sold myself on. When they told me to pray, I didn't realize how powerful and important that truly was. Hundreds of meetings, and thoroughly working all of the steps in order, later I now walk a free man. I have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. I had to learn to listen, and listen to learn. I had to shut my mouth and listen to and then follow the suggestions of what worked for those who came before me. I am grateful for so many things, but most importantly for another day of sobriety!! I wish I could just reach out and give this to everyone, but that's me trying to play God. If anyone is struggling, please feel free to reach out to me. I am responsible, when anyone anywhere reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA always to be there and for that, I am responsible. Have a wonderfully sober day everyone!
Terrific story. Kudos to you for all the hard work.
They say, "Ya gotta give it away to keep it". I have grown to trust the suggestions that they make, and I believe what they say is true. So here I am while I am eating my lunch at work, trying to carry the message. Thank you for your kind words, Brian!
Congratulations brother I’ve had a similar experience. Arrived to AA a completely broken soul, ready and willing to surrender to the suggestions. May we continue to live the program ODAAT
Congratulations to you too! I had to 4th step God and the Catholic church. It was liberating to let all of my fears and resentments go!! Today, I choose that God is everything. I pray to remain in His grace, and to never go back to God is nothing.
Fantastic. That’s how it works. Thank God for the gift of desperation and the capacity to be honest even if only briefly at first.
Thank you for carrying the message.