This is just another year of loneliness, heartbreak, and more devastation. We don’t live life—we endure it. Today’s redeeming quality is it’s one day closer to my journey ending.
Are you ok over there? You need someone to talk to?
I can relate to this in the sense of just wanting the holidays over with. This goes for all holidays.
And once you lose a few close people to death you do go thru this realization how temporary life is. Add addiction to cope over trauma and were all walking timebombs.
I hope you can look at the glass as half full and say 5 things everyday that you are grateful for. 
One day at a a time.
I’m okay, I appreciate it though. Spending the day trying to emotionally reset with some help from my sponsor.
I'm glad youre okay and working with your sponsor... just some food for thought; You must let what happens happen. Everything must be equal in your eyes, good and evil, beautiful and ugly, foolish and wise.
Nobody knows what will happen five minutes from now let alone 365 days. You don’t have to make it a self fulfilling prophecy if you choose to make it better.