30 years on May 8th. Kentucky Derby 1994 last drunk. What a show off and phony I was. I was the designated driver for entire office. Was at the Horse Track and saw the connect my friends, bosses and peers had as they drank and that feeling of not belonging (as big a part of my alcoholism as anything) hit and I was dry 6 months and I did exactly what the big book said I would do in my condition, dry and working no program, I reached out for what the book describes as the alcoholics “easier, softer way” and that is to drink. I immediately got smashed and fit right in once again. What happened as the physical act of drinking was “not” my alcoholism. It was my inability to be happy, joyous, and free without it.
28 years with my Alnon and soulmate. She didn’t leave me after my last drunk.
Lost her to Cancer in 2022 when I had 28 years.
For being present I am truly grateful. Grateful the program taught me as did the book, drinking was not the disease. Alcohol was my magic alexir. Since then the spiritual program of AA is and was.
I was sober and present in 2022 when she and my 13 year old needed me. 100% present. Grateful for all now and in the past
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That is beautiful...what you said as well as inspiration...thankyou for sharing 
Grateful for now...the past...and the future