I tend to catastrophize my emotions and I’m a people-pleaser. My boyfriend and I have been learning that we communicate differently over the last two plus years.
It frustrates me to no end. I’ve felt like my needs aren’t being met while I do whatever it takes to make him content.
In his own little way he will try to show me he cares but because I am so hung up on how I want to feel and how it’s not happening, I tend to miss his gestures.
The other night I told him to f#ck off because he wanted to kiss me goodnight and go to sleep in his separate bed and I lost it. I told him how much I hated that. I told him I felt like I was being used. I told him I felt disrespected. And I told him I was over it.
This morning I woke up and was worried I had ended our relationship in my emotional state. Then I caved later in the day and asked him if he wanted to keep working on our relationship. He replied Yeah. Just yeah. I had to refrain from popping off again over such a simple response.
Even with 4.5 years in I find myself emotionally unstable at times. Why?
