Learning to LOVE this sober life. I’m not gonna say I haven’t had times where I was frozen in place in my house, keys in hand, ready to turn around and go buy something to use to numb my pain. That’s happened a couple times for sure. But I play the tape forward and I don’t like what I see. One time it took me probably 15 minutes of standing in place. I was afraid to move toward the door because I knew if I got that momentum behind me I would get in my car and go buy something to numb my pain. Another time I grabbed the dogs leash and went straight out the door and just kept walking until the urge left. Each time I wake up the next morning with so much gratitude. I have found that I have so much time to accomplish things. Things I never would’ve thought I had time to do before. I even made myself a shirt. I sewed myself a shirt! I have discovered that I really love sewing. It’s quiet, meditative, and peaceful. I can focus (FOCUS!) on cutting out patterns, watching tutorials, and creating. I have also re-discovered my love of reading. I used to be so drunk I would forget what I had read and need to reread things constantly and then it became annoying so I gave up. to now reconnect with something that I love tremendously has completely change my nighttime routine. And I sleep so gooooood. It took a few weeks. But then it just started happening. Sweet sound sleep. To anyone struggling YOU CAN DO IT!! You are WORTH the care and attention you can give yourself when you stop using. Take it one minute at a time. Watch the minutes turn into hours and hours turn into days and the days turn into months. Just do the right thing for the next minute and keep doing it. You won’t be disappointed. You won’t believe who’s inside you-the TRUE you just waiting for the chance to come out again 
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Great job!!!! You are an inspiration!
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What ya reading ?
The Hidden Palace by Helene Wecker
Great to hear this!! I’ve learned some things over the years and have kinda found myself again. It’s definitely worth it when you take the time to put in the work to be free of substances! Proud of you and happy you are doing well. Keep it up!
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Trilogy ?