As of 4/30/24, I have somehow managed to stay sober for four years. Alcohol youst to be a big part of my life, just about every day consisted of how I was gonna incorporate alcohol into my daily routine. I wasn't one who could just drink a few beers and just chill,it was a full on mission as to how I was gonna get black out drunk,you name it I've done it while being drunk. Waking up the next day and having no recollection of what happened the night before, my wife and daughter telling me of my crazy embarrassing behavior was just an everyday thing. It got to the point where in my own head that I did not have a problem and it was just a coping routine to decompress from work stress and other life problems. It was like I was living a double life,mind you I wasn't the guy who drank in the mornings before work or anything but you could bet that on the way home from work I would be buying a ton of beer to slam down before my loved ones got home and then try and play it off as if I wasn't drinking. It's almost as if I was proud to say I was a functioning alcoholic. It's only now that I realize how much alcohol had a dark grip on me, looking back now it almost hard for me to believe that I was that person. I tried the whole AA thing for a few weeks but it just wasn't for me I can honestly say that I went there drunk a few times. For me and I know this might seem far fetched but what I did was stopped doing a lot of the things that I associated alcohol with witch was pretty much everything and tried to find outlets to curb my way of thinking. I could go on for hours about this but my hands are getting tired of typing and I feel like I'm going in circles with all this depressing stuff.
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Congratulations on 4 years, that’s amazing!
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Man I can relate to your story. I was never drunk at work, but I was never sober outside of work. 45 min commute was plenty of time to decompress (get pretty buzzed), leading up to drinking to pass out drunk for the night, just to do the same the next day, over and over again. I am inspired by your 4 years sober. It can be done. Thank you Shawn!!
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Congratulations Shawn! You pretty much described my double h hockey sticks I’m going through to a tee. Sorry about that it wouldn’t let me type there word. Im going on day 6🙏I’m hoping to find new sober friends on this platform that are in the Seattle area to start planning some fun summer adventures. Thank you for sharing! Stacey
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