45 days sober, but the last two days have been rough! Ugh feeling like jumping out of my skin wanting to drink so bad. I just could not find anything to comfort myself. So I just got went to bed!
Try to find something else to do. Exercise read a book meditate anything but taking that drink.
Congratulations on those 46 days. Hope you rested well. What Robin said. Find something to keep busy. They have 24 hour a day meetings you can attend on zoom. Late at night if I’m jammed up I like to visit Ireland or Australia meetings. Kind of cool. Good luck.
If you remove alcohol from the alcoholic, you're left with ic. Working a program of your choosing helps relieve those icky feelings & connects you with others who've been there. It does get better. If it didn't there would be no one here.
Thanks for the love 
Hey Gail. I get it. Steve is correct. We need to replace the “spirits” with spirituality.
Have you gone to any meetings?
Also I would recommend listening to the audio episodes as there is a wealth of knowledge there.
Happy to help 
