9 years ago right now I was at my lowest my rock bottom I was so sick couldn’t keep food down but couldn’t drink. My body was rejecting everything I would go to work shaking and with drawling as the day kept going until I would get home from work and force to keep it down to me this was normal. I remember being at my parents house on the boat trying to drink a beer any struggling to even hold the beer can to drink it..
My body shut down had 2 massive seizures and then woke up in the hospital. After 1 week of medical detox I was awake and not aware of anything that had happened the previous 7 days I do not remember a thing other than trying to open my front door for my neighbor and ho was checking on me and not being able to perform that basic function but yes to me this was normal.
After all of what I had been through detoxing, seizures, hospital and the horrible things I blurted out during my detox the minute I got home I thought about drinking it was my routine what I was used too at that moment it all got me it all made sense that I was not well not the week in those hospital or the lack of control it was the post effect of wanting to drink something that literally almost killed me.
WE DO RECOVER
I will have 9 years this month on the 14th now I know what “normal” feels like my imperfect normal has become the foundation of my life and everyday is something to celebrate.. just wanted to share maybe someone out there can relate to my experience 