5 Things I Am Grateful For Today

Daily Gratitude
#1
  1. To finally being free from the grips of active addiction
  2. To have once again found a solution to my problem
  3. To actually working a daily program of recovery
  4. To have found meetings that feel good to me
  5. To have met real friends in recovery, and have a support system
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#2

Thanks for giving back, SoFlo.

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#3

Give thanks to the lord​:pray::smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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#4

Glad you are doing well, Lee. You add a lot to this community !

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#5

What’s “active addiction” to you ? and on the other hand what is the opposite, inactive passive addiction?

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#6

Hey Two! I’ve missed you! That’s a great question! Not sure I’m prepared to answer, but I’ll try lol. Active addiction to me is when I’m running and numbing myself with alcohol/drugs/compulsive destructive behaviors. Once it starts, I slowly (or quickly) become stuck in a downward spiral that I can’t get myself out regardless of how insane the consequences are. Does that resonate? Now for the opposite… For me it starts with first stopping the substance/behaviors, followed by a daily regimen that focuses on finding healthier ways to manage my feelings/emotions. I believe there are many paths to finding “emotional sobriety”, but that they all have some common themes. Reduction of ego and pride, faith or trust in something good, and mindfulness. That’s all I got right now, but I’d be happy to elaborate or chat about further

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#7

definitely resonates.
sometimes i think maybe i do want to die yet in reality i want to escape this place whatever the F UCK you call it EARTH, MATRIX, LIFE, FAMILY, MY MIND, WHATS IN FRONT OF MY EYES escape it all
im scared of dying. i would never harm myself but i have so many intrusive thoughts. my brain works in hyperdrive. I believe i have a high functioning Autism. There so much more to this but these are a few things that are overwhelming and other people have told me they don’t act like that
I can’t stand bras. i have not worn one since freshman year highschool. f uck those uncomfortable piece of useless material around my body.
Transition into the shower can be overwhelming, like icky, i don’t know how to describe it
i hate my gross wet long hair on my back after i shower
my stims are biting nails until they are numbs, constantly twirling my hair, and
I eat the same food everyday, watch the same show over and over and over, hang out with one friend, and it’s that one person, over, and over AGAIN.
im here again.
Why?