I’m 64 days sober and hopefully to infinity. I feel like a bus ran me over and I can’t seem to heal myself anymore.
I keep relieving the past on every time I have relapsed. Going inside head like why are you doing this to yourself?
First couple of years was all fun and games. Until people started asking the same questions over and over again. Then started looking at me suspicious. That’s when the name calling started. Like crack, bug eyes, mutated human, ugly boy.
In 2020 I was so over dope! Unfortunately I didn’t know how possessive and controlling it could be. I only used it when I wanted to have a good time or distress myself:
I think only people that are going through the same problem could understand this.
I’m 31 going on 32 in a couple of months. All I can worry about is having a full recovery and not having any health issues after.
If you’re still struggling with addiction? My advice is surround yourself with positive people and good influencers. Get some lab work done and see if there’s any damaged. Stay active, eat healthy and journal your thoughts.
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You seem to have your path lit up in front of you,
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Thanks Jeff I’m working extremely hard to get my life back together. I wanna go back home 