I just hit 6th months a little while ago. It’s the longest I’ve been sober since I started at a young age. I know it’s naive but I kinda thought if I made it through the first month or two things would get easier. But now I catch myself having more moments of weakness where I try to convince myself I can have one drink. I feel like I was lulled into a sense of security by the first few months and now I’m slipping. Anyways just wanted to get that off my chest and get advice from the community.
I can totally relate and I will tell you my story in hopes that it helps shed some light on this difficult time .
I was 5 months sober the longest I had ever been in my life . I also started drinking at a young age . I always drank till I passed out or blacked out . Once I got sober and got 5 months I felt so In control of my life for the first time . I had everything .. the best paying job my social life was thriving and my parents were both so proud of my . One night I had 1 glass of wine with a friend and I didn’t want another . I felt like I had it in the bag that I just needed to take a break and now my relationship with alcohol was a healthy one . Not even a week later I went one a bender so bad I disappeared with people my parents didn’t know . I lost my job , I broke my ankle , my parents called the cops to do a welfare check because they didn’t know where I was and once I pulled out of it I ended up in detox . I lost the job , I lost some friends and worst of all I lost the respect and trust of my family . I got right back into AA and I now have a sponsor and almost 4 months of sobriety . All it took was one drink and I had to start over again . Just my story I hope it helps 
