6 months sober as of yesterday. I am so grateful and happy with how far I've come, tons of changes and forward movement.
Went to a concert last night and realized something really important. Now that the urge to get loaded (which didn't show up as I watched folks get sloppier and slower) on the daily has gotten less. The real work begins. I went home not feeling bummed that I didn't get drunk but with the "if I wasn't so selfish and shitfaced all these years where could I be?"
I went to bed reminding myself that this is the kiss of death. Leave the past where it is, be accountable NOW, live in the present and have the courage to really be present from this point.
After while, the crisis was averted. Crazy, 10 out of 10 times it's been a bowl, a beer and Jack in The Box after a show, not all this feelings junk. Ha ha, stay strong and grateful team.
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The feelings are what keep it real for me. Great post man, and congratulations on the 6month ma k. That’s outstanding