Good Morning Everyone! I am new here. I am so grateful to have my life back! I have 64 days sober today!
I came to this app in hopes to makes more sober friends and connections. I am 10 days back from rehab. I broke down one night, got on my laptop and started searching for help. Within mins I had someone from a treatment facility asking me to get on a plane and go to Florida! 1,900 miles from home. I went. I thank God it was so far from home, lord knows the first 2 weeks I tried to leave a few times. It turned out to be the most amazing experience. I did 28 days in inpatient and transferred to PHP for another 4 weeks. I miss having my peers around and the connections I made.
I have fought with my addiction for over 20 years. I’ve been in treatments, institutions, jails, on a ventilator in hospitals multiple times. It was never enough. After all of that I still always went back to the poison. All I had left was death. I couldn’t eat anymore, or get out of bed. Constant anxiety, sick all day everyday. I drank from morning to night, passing out to do it all over again. I finally broke down. I surrendered.
They talk about how amazing your life will become, “just give it a year!” In just the 10 days home, my relationships with my family, & children have improved tremendously. I was offered a job that had 15 other candidates (they called me 2 hours after the interview. Then text me 15 mins after that call to offer me an even higher wage.)
I am excited to see what the future holds, also nervous. I still feel lije I don’t deserve it, that it is all going to disappear. I know I have to work this program like my life depends on it, because it does! I need to find a sponsor still. I am having a hard to reaching out, sometimes a hard time walking into meetings.
I thought I would post this, any advice or sober friends is something I desperately need!
Sorry for the long post!! 
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Hey there. Welcome aboard. Hang in there and keep going strong on your recovery.
Congratulations! You haven’t gone thru sooooo much to get where you are now. Do not let your pride and ego get in the way now. Just like you surrendered 64 + days ago and asked for help, find the courage and strength to ask for help again. I had similar issues asking someone to be my sponsor, so I understand how uncomfortable it feels. However, staying sober is about asking for help every morning, so let’s get going and get yourself a sponsor…please
your doing amazing