Wow its really been 7 months. Well 7 months and a day being 1:25 am. I dont really sleep anymore. I hardly eat. I live in fear and suffering. Ironically it has nothing to do with alcohol. Its just money and the people in this world who lie and cheat and scammed me out of everything l had and left me to die in a ditch. Only this time i wound up in that ditch sober. Funny how life works isn't it? Here i go and think quitting alcohol would be the start of a new life and new beginning. The start of things to go right in the world for me. And what happens? I get buried deeper than ive ever been. I wont drink my pain away. But i sure wish i had something to make my brain turn off at least for a few hours right now. I even started a GoFundMe as my last options hoping maybe getting something back if only there was someone that can afford to help would but no one does. I cant blame them. I'm the stupid moron that got played. I realize this is a greatful writting post. But one thing i still am, even now, is honest. I apologize to everyone. I hope you all can at least understand me. I won't drink because it will only make matters worse. I hope you all are doing well and that light shines down upon you all. God bless and best wishes.
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You’ve come too far to turn back now. I know it hurts, and I know this isn’t what you pictured, but the fact that you’re still here, still honest, and still sober says more than you know.
When I was in a place like this, the only way forward was through. One step, one breath, one day and sometimes it was minutes at a time. Keep knocking. Keep showing up. You’re not crazy for thinking life could be better. That hope is your strength. You’re not alone here. Keep going, you matter.
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Hmmm what matters... You mean like ice cream, right?!