9 years sober but lately I’m just feeling so tired of being sober. Tired of feeling different. Wishing I could have a little drink to take the edge of. But I know I wouldn’t be able to stop at a little drink and now I’m feeling just stuck. Not all my days are hard but the last few days have felt heavy.
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Think about what happened when you drink. The extreme that always ends up happening. Do you miss THOSE things? What's wrong with being different? Everyone is striving to be special or different these days, yet all they do is monkey see/monkey do. Being sober is awesome. More importantly, not fücking your life up and creating more regret is even better.
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Are you making meetings carrying the message helping others after some time under our belt we get complacent it happened to me and I went back out and now I am starting over it wasn’t worth it I promise you I am now living with my son sleeping on his couch and definitely not where I wanted to be or where I was because I thought I could handle it I just celebrated 3 months I forgot to do the three things I listed in the beginning and BAM here I go again stay strong
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Congratulations on 9 years! In this community you are someone us newbies look up to.
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Have you tried saying the serenity prayer to yourself
When you feel like taking a drink I for one found it to be a little help to keep me stable until I get to a meeting and share about it
Then I feel better that whole day
So I know how it could be the triggers stinking thinking ECT I found prayer and talking to other members that's nice in fellowship and knows about the program helpful in getting through
Times like those and so far I been at least c grade
Cause for one I trust God,c, two I attempt to clean house,b,three I try to help others,a, and I not only sober but my grades are nice and I got a new character that requires me too not use and a ability to want to continue to work with others !
In keeping it simple one more day
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Please don’t do it….
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Hello Sarah, I'm only sober 16 months and at 66 yrs old I may never see your 9 yrs and I'm ok with that.
As far as different, you are but in a very special good way.
For me what you see is what you get, sorry but I'm aging like a smelly cheese lol.
I was my my own biggest problem. My only triggers are in my head. They are still there as yours appear to be. The 1 thing we know is the bottle didn't work then and it won't work now. If you want to talk reach out anytime I will talk 
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Thank you for this! You are absolutely right! I have gained so much by choosing sobriety and would lose so much if I chose to drink again!
So true! It’s so much easier to reminisce about the “good days” and forget all the bad that came from it! But it’s better to flip the script and think about all the good that is happening now because of my sobriety
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I get that. Yes, I actually started going to meetings about a month ago and got my first sponsor. 
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Awe thanks! I’m still learning, obviously lol but I do the same and look up to those that are walking ahead of me
I didn’t
Thank you so much! I really loved reading your comment!
Have you read Sunshine Warm Sober by Catherine Gray? Great read. I’m actually not far enough into sobriety for it so I’m saving the rest of it. What you posted is what it’s about. 
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Oh really? No I haven’t but I’ll look it up. Thank you!
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Stay strong. Play the tape through. How does it always end up. You got this! 9 years is amazing!
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Thank you! Yes, so true!
Wow! That’s deep! Makes total sense! I got it! 
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Thank god and help others💜 that’s my foundation.
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Heavy days can be a drag. I hope you feel better soon. Life can be high stress sometimes. It appears that you need a break. Perhaps some meditation. Imagine yourself on a beach in the Yucatan. Oh the blue water, the salty air. I can taste it.
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