I have almost 26 months sober. I practice a program. Lately, I’ve been getting away from my meetings, step work, sober peers. Feeling stuck big time and developing a case of the “f—k its” because I am feeling sorry for myself. I have been contemplating drinking over the past few weeks. This weekend is my belly button birthday. Feel like I have no one or nothing to celebrate. I feel like I am either going to have some type break through or a complete breakdown and relapse. I hate to be so dramatic, but I am afterall, an alcoholic and it’s how I feel right now. I haven’t shared this information with my sober peers or sponsor. I guess “outing” myself on this app is a step in the right direction. I do not want to pick up and drink this weekend. Appreciate prayers and positive vibes. Maybe I should go and read my sober spotlight post. That should be a great reminder of why I should not drink…..
Yes, read Sober Spotlight.
You are freaking 26 months sober! That's a reason to celebrate. It's your birthday. That's a reason to celebrate. Girl, don't worry about others.
Celebrate another birthday sober and OWN IT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
Hey TG, first and foremost Happy Birthday!
It takes a great amount of courage on your part to be home with yourself and what you are feeling. To reiterate what Amanda said, don't worry about what others think and enjoy the day doing things you enjoy without the need to drink. You'll come to find that you will have much more fun and be able to do all three days.
I am sorry to here this ,I have 6 years and deal w the f-its from time to time still,
So after I got sober I got it all back family friends respect the lord blessed me w good people around me and a new truck, well after a bunch of forgetting about me I drank and I lost it all in a min! The next few weeks sucked , but I started a list of what I still had a gratitude list if you would , I went to AA and took on a commitment to drive a guy to meetings cause sometimes if ya won’t do it for yourself you won’t let others down.found a shrink that specialized in drug and alcohol and started vivitrol it helps kill my desire to drink.
I hope this helps you in your time of need!
Stay strong cause only the strong survive
BTW . You say it’s hard to out yourself to others well you did it in this post be proud
Now go hit a meeting and tell on yourself w pride!
Congratulations first off unfortunately some us feel like that and we get complacent. Keep going no matter what life on life’s terms hit more meetings and most importantly call your sober support!
You’re sharing about so that’s a great thing! Keep up the great work!! Reach out to your sober friends and hit a meeting!
26 months is absolutely amazing, why would you want to go back out. That’s just crazy. Go to a meeting, connect with people. You may not be lucky enough to make it back. Someone this week told me their friend went back out and unfortunately was dead within months. Please stay strong. You got this.
Go to a meeting. When they ask for a topic say exactly what you posted here. There is a solution, and it is not alcohol. You know what it is and where to find it.
You said it in your post. You’re alcoholic that is 25 months sober!!!!!!!
THATS A MIRACLE!
Don’t throw it away.
Get to a meeting.
Your spotlight post was perhaps the first thing I ever read on this app. It's just another day, birthday's are. As special as you want to make it, as disastrous as YOU WON'T. IDK what you have to do to quit feeling sorry for yourself. can you maybe explain further? I do know if you relapse I will be in Albuquerque next spring and I'll be happy to kick your @ss so you don't have to! jk of course but metaphorically not!
Happy Birthday. Make it a sober one. It doesn't have to be a big to-do. Mine never are. I don't like that so they just ain't.
Stay strong this weekend!! My birthday is what fucked me up in August and it's been brutal getting back for anything more than 30 days. I'm finishing up Day 2 just now... I would highly suggest seeking out people (don't isolate), take a walk around the block and get some fresh air, slam some water and go out for a nice birthday meal or order in 
Do anything that your mind and body will thank you for, and we all know that's definitely NOT drinking!! Happy birthday!! To another 24!! 
Just for today! You woke up sober today, then we have the same amount of time! Rinse and repeat!!