A day late, but I thought this was super relatable. Anyone else?
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I love this. Not being able to cope at the lowest point in my life is what turned me to drugs. At the time it kept me alive, but I came to realize that eventually it would kill me if my mental health didn’t. I’m a big believer that addiction comes from trauma and the lack of tools to deal with big emotions.
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Yes most definitely,I hold on to too much for too long and forget to talk about it
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Yes! Especially the dark corners the passage talks about. I had no idea i had issues with anxiety and trauma until i stopped drinking. However, working a good program on top of professional help has been a great benefit!
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I agree. Mine definitely came from trauma, but I know people who had great childhoods and still got hooked after experimenting with the wrong crowd. Sometimes it’s not trauma, it’s underlying stuff like low self-esteem or ADHD that makes that first dopamine hit feel like the answer. Science calls it a disease either way, recovery is the answer. 
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I completely agree! I’ve made a conscious effort to avoid letting regret dictate my actions. However, I must admit that I missed out on a lot by not reaching out for help and believing that I could handle everything on my own for so many years. Regardless, I am incredibly grateful for my recovery.
I did too. I kept trauma and pain locked up for way too long. When we suppress trauma or pain, it doesn’t disappear.., it festers. Our brains keep replaying it, our bodies hold the stress, and eventually, it manifests hence addiction, anger, or anxiety. Silence protects the pain, while speaking up destroys it. Never knew that until I went to therapy.
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1000%. I grew up in a house where we didn’t talk about our feelings. I bottled them up, kept everything inside for so many years which of course led to drugs and alcohol as a teen. I didn’t start going to therapy until my divorce 3 years ago and I’m still learning to feel my feelings out loud because I don’t want to be a burden to other people. It’s a journey for sure!
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That is very helpful I do have problems with my emotions of a child of a childhood trauma today I still am working on them sobriety is a good thing cuz we can't run from what we ignore God bless you and you keep on
I still fall victim to this,I don't know if I'm too stubborn alit if the time thinking I can deal with everything on my own,it's what I'm use to Crissy,I don't have many people in my life anymore so it's hard to vent to that 1 person it's very hard on them.and I've lost a few along the way cause I become to much for people.
It really is. I had to dig deep in therapy to find my core cause of using. Sometimes I find comfort in the fact that if I know the why I can learn how to cope
Thank you so much for sharing this I’ve been dealing with this for a very long time but after reading it I can honestly say it touched me and motivated me to wanna do something different in life
100% agree. Learning to deal with my emotions in sobriety with clarity and understanding has made me into a better person. Though there are days where some of these "dark" things pop up seemingly out of no where, I'm learning that something triggered them and I "sit" with it for a while. I try to figure out the "why" it came up, face it head on (if necessary) or let it go. One of the hardest things I've learned...my past doesn't define me.
Definitely, drinking started as something that was enjoyable and social, and it turned into a way to deal with the horrible marriage that I was feeling so trapped in. It's extremely difficult dealing with your emotions when the person you're with refuses to discuss their feelings and emotions, being stonewalled in what is supposed to be a loving relationship is one of the most challenging things I've ever dealt with. And now I'm all by myself....
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I feel so you and I’m sorry to hear that. You’re not by yourself though, there’s a whole community you’re apart of that’s here for you so take some comfort in that
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This is pretty Fire 
she hit us with the good good Thank you Friend lol 
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Thanks AJ!
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Thank you so much for posting this
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