There’s no easy or kind way to say it - I drank last night. I know what the antecedents were to the behavior - I’ve been struggling with my mental health following a transition of jobs, my relationship is not in a good place, I had a dinner with the girls planned where it was expected we would all be having some drinks, and you know the rest. I’m obviously disappointed in myself and feeling a lot of big feelings. But there is a silver lining in all the big dark feelings I feel right now - I didn’t enjoy drinking, and I don’t want to keep drinking. If anything, I am more resolved than ever to an alcohol-free life. But today is Day 1 again. It will be my last. And I know I don’t owe anyone but myself these words, but it does help to share them and not feel alone. 
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You are right! It signals a change when you don't enjoy it... you've got this!!!!
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It takes what it takes!
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Are your friends supportive of your sobriety?
They will be. I had not shared my journey with them - but I will now.
I'm so glad you're back with us with new determination. My relapse 2 yrs ago was traumatic and not enjoyable at all
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Some of us had many day ones. Thank God WE only have to do it today. Welcome back 
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