The first time I went to a meeting I saw something in the eyes of the people there that really surprised me. The look of joy is what I saw rather the disparity I was expecting and had felt myself so many times. Immediately I was intrigued about what it was that they had and I never thought I would have.
Having Borderline makes it that have been disconnected from a lot of emotions for a long time. The negative emotions tend to come in large waves and the positive stay well hidden.
I’ve been going to groups for nearly 2 months now, multiple times per week. I read my daily reflections and write about them. (“A Limitless Lode” was the one for today.) I’m reading my Big Book and connect with other people.
This week I felt a shift happening. I was reading a couple of my daily writings to a friend and this gentle wave of relief and hope came over me. It has started, I’m slowly uncovering this load of emotional gold.
I’m so grateful for what is happening.