A little bit over 48 hours of no alcohol and its been a struggle. First day, I was looking everywhere for anything to drink, found about less than half a cup of hard liquor and I was shaking, I felt relief as soon as I had a sip but felt great shame and guilt after I was done drinking it. I almost went and bought another bottle but I stopped myself realizing that I would just be back in that fiending state again after I was done with it. My anxiety was/is at an all time high but I know I don’t want to live this way anymore. Any tips on how to continue surviving these withdrawals? I’ve been nothing but productive these past 2 days, I’m also planning on going to my first AA meeting tonight but it’s not until 5 more hours and it’s been hard to focus on sobriety when I could easily get a bottle right now to find quick relief. I downloaded this app yesterday when I was in that “maybe I should buy it but I don’t want to” state and read peoples success stories and thought to myself, I wanna be like them. I just want to feel normal again. Any tips are welcome, thanks in advance.
I wish there was an easier way but I don’t know of one
Rehab if you can afford it (I couldn’t)
Stay home shower often (lots of sweat)
Drink lots of water
Eat something when you can
Good luck
You’re doing this for you
The first week is hard. Procrastinate that bad habit feeling and do anything else and keep on doing anything else. Do it for you like Pat said. We're only getting older and more decrepit. It will hurt more later on if you don't quit now. Like physically. Our bodies aren't 21 anymore.
Imagine all you have lost including your self respect taking care of that alcohol addiction , now imagine all you have to gain staying sober taking care of yourself first in a positive way and realizing how much better you are 100% yourself and continuing to work on yourself making your life so much better than before.
Depending on how far along you are in your alcohol and detox at home can be very dangerous. Little more than five months ago my fiancé tried detoxing herself at home and she died. Go see the doctor alcohol does so many bad things to your digestive system. You could be in a lot more danger than you know. Detox should be done by a medical professional.
I’m sorry for your loss. I am thinking of going to the hospital if it doesn’t get any better but so far, I’m feeling pretty optimistic as I’m feeling less symptoms but anxiety and brain fog are the number one things that are being persistent. Thank you for your suggestion.
& also thank you to everyone else for your help as well, I’m pretty scared to go to AA today but I know it’s something I need to do, 2 more hours 
They shall pass
Don’t be scared AA you will find more caring, concerned and loving people than you’ve ever in your life Mariana. The people that are in my Home Group or my family. My brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles moms and dad‘s grandparents. My drinking and addiction drove my entire family away. There’s a long road to reconstruction ahead of James.. I’m so estranged from my family. I don’t know where most of them are or if they’re even alive it’s been decades. The people in AA have filled in wonderfully. When I show up people tell me now that they’re happy to see me and glad I’m there people tell me they love me and hug me. It’s been a long time since I had anything like that. Just go stick out your hand, introduce yourself when I got to AI was an absolute wreck. I cried and shook uncontrollably. I found nothing but love kindness and compassion. Just go.
Marlana THANK YOU for sharing! You can totally do this! Going to AA meetings daily is super smart. I had to go early mornings before work and at night so I could get the relief I needed.
My anxiety was monumental 
. I tried everything but AA meetings and the 12 steps for years and relapsed too many times. Finally I went to the real solution that works for me.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions.
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I was gonna ask what thought kept you from buying another bottle till I read the end. It was hearing the success of others. That's neat. You don't always have to feel like the newcomer though. So many can benefit from hearing what got you through it. You've reminded me to read about success stories and I'm buying another blue book because of you.
Edit: I got one just now on eBay. They were willing to negotiate the price, too, FYI!
Find a meeting any meeting and talk to somebody. It’s the best way.
Are you going to meetings are there any near you? How many days you have? Proud of you!!!
If you need a big book, I’ll send you one
I’m 6 days in now! Compared to the first two-three days, I’m feeling incredibly better and I’m slowly starting to recognize who I am again in the mirror. Bit of anxiety here and there but I’m still extremely excited to hit the 1 week mark which will be here in no time. It felt like I wasn’t making any improvements these past few days but it’s only because I refused to think it was getting better. Now I’m thinking more positively than I did before.
I was more of a biegn dri nker, maybe a week then I need rest so I would sleep for about three days to kill the hangover. Once sober I can go a week or two sometimes but I started doing drugs crack to be exact and my world went upside down after a while. I ended up losing everything and was in a deep depression after losing my girlfriend after about 7yrs.
I know my higher power saw my condition and took the desires away to use or drink and I started reading the Bible and praying, after a while before I knew it I wasn't depressed anymore. Only by his grace and love that I pulled through and doing pretty good. I'm still building my life back together but loving it. Don't never struggle with wanting to use or drink but using ha e cross my mind, I just simply say to myself that's ot an option and the thought go away. Hope this helps 
Way to go.
I suggest going to detox
I have been there and am experiencing it again. What helps me is going for a walk or hike. The feeling of accomplishing that gives me great satisfaction and a drink is far from my mind. I've also been able to sleep better.
See a therapist every week. Focus on the trauma that has caused you to drink. Be open and honest with yourself. Look at the addiction as a enemy and it's out to harm you. Keep seeing the therapist know matter if you are still drinking. Tell yourself it will be OK.