I have an addictive personality. Whether it’s alcohol, drugs, caffeine, sugar, chocolate, tobacco, you name it and I’ve abused it. I think the root cause of my addiction, especially to alcohol and drugs is it’s a way for me to escape my demons of depression and anxiety. The alcohol and drugs gave me an escape from the reality at least for awhile. One of the hardest things for me is that I seem to always need to replace one addiction with another. After I gave up booze and drugs, I replaced it with caffeine and nicotine. I quit tobacco and so I used to consume vast quantities of caffeine in the form of coffee and energy drinks. Then I developed Afib and I had to give up caffeine too! I’m probably the cleanest living guy on the planet now!! I hate it. Some people say: isn’t sobriety great??? Parts of it are, yes. A lot of it isn’t though. The cravings come on very strong and I sometimes feel there is no escape from reality for me. I need advice. The holidays are upon us and temptation is everywhere.
