The battle rages on,
The war inside my mind,
Its nights like these when I wake up,
And wonder where am I?,
If I could just escape,
If I could quickly drown,
I wish that I were six feet deep,
In solid frozen ground.
Silently I suffer,
I scream but no one hears.
Silently I suffer,
I run with no reprieve.
The pain I’m in is real,
But still I sit unseen.
Maybe one day soon,
I’ll fall somewhere between.
The alcohol, the weed,
The pills have made me weak,
The substances are demons,
The ones who make me bleed.
I no longer hark,
the voice of desperation,
I no longer feel,
the need for retribution,
I forgave my father,
But His wrongs I can’t forget
I can’t forgive myself though
For the wrongs that I commit.
It’s time to let her go,
To kill her memory,
It’s time to burn the raptor’s claw,
In perfect taciturnity,
It’s time to let her go,
To let my mind be still.
It’s time to let her go,
And in the end I will.