A relapse that has me stuck! I mean it's so much harder this time bc I am able to function and get things done and hold down s job without hating the fact that I have to keep going no matter what. I actually enjoy my days at work and I love being home not getting high and being with my man. I love my life and am not wanting to throw it away for nothing it's so different from the life I used to live I mean like night and day!! I love God and I am scared that He is going to quit giving me the chance to fix this but yet I still have chosen to do it at work because I feel as if I wont be able to do it without some kind of assistance with my physical and mental state while at work. Ughhhhhh I need to get away from myself and look at me from the outside what would I tell someone else or want for the ppl I love? That's easy right
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