Days like these where feelings of sadness & loneliness are exasperated by the holidays, I am reminded of my “why” to drink: to lift my mood, disconnect from my fears & control physical & emotional pain. As I move forward, the best thing I can do is to not be hard to myself. It makes complete sense why I would self medicate this way- my nervous system is firing for relief. Yes, my mood is super low. Yes, I’m working through pain & anxiety. & also yes, I’m sober, which is a badass accomplishment to own. Even if it’s not a “merry” or “happy” holiday season, I’m thankful it’s a sober one because I know I I feel so much worse if it wasn’t. Sober cheers to you all 
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Merry Christmas 
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You as well 
Just know what you are feeling shall pass. Stay strong and fight to remind sober because begin sober is being a badass
Badass is right!
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Wow, that’s the wisdom of the season speaking there. Far freakin out young lady. You nailed it. Merry jolly jolly and enjoy the love of the season your higher power has gifted you with. Made my night, again.
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Merry Christmas beautiful and happy New Year in advance
Everything will surely get better
Merry Christmas Kandi! I wish you some peace this holiday season. Give yourself the gift of forgiveness. I hear lots of strength in your message. Continue to walk thru the pain. It does get better!