My D.O.C is meth I successfully completed a 30 day rehab, went to a recovery house and after no more than 2 weeks I left the recovery house and went out onto the streets and went and found some, blew all my money, now im in a tent in the woods just wishing i would just go to sleep and never wake up. I am so utterly disgusted with myself i cant see straight. I have lost e everything, the motel i went to hook up, I left to go to the store to get some drinks and when i came back the cops were there, so of course i split. All my clothes, my medicine, hygiene things, all gone. I have told one of my dear friends what ive done but that's it. My son and my other friends dont know yet. I have been in the woods getting high in my tent by myself and now im out and all i can do is lay here and cry because I have let myself and everyone else down. I keep saying it's a good thing i dont have a pistol because I'd end it all in a fraction of a second. I wish i knew what to do.
Brian. You have many reasons to keep living and to get back on track. I have spent a lot of nights with similar thoughts going through my head and am now SO grateful I was too chickenshit to go through with it. Now every day is easier to go forward. Your sons and friends will forgive you for slipping up. They will never forgive you if you give up.
Please don’t get down that low go back to rehab now it’s not to late you can come out of this on the other side happy maybe you need a hospital like friends on the boulevard they helped me when I was that low at one time. It’s worth it go please I know it’s hard to do something like that but they will help you please don’t give up and don’t forget you are not alone
Thank you for the concern, I'm just laying here crying wishing was stronger