My mother keeps insulting me and she says things to me about me that are hurtful and untrue. She lies about the things I say and do.
She tears me down for having this disease, violently calling me a drug addict, then other days violently tells me i need to be put on medications.
She calls me surly and arrogant when i am actually just keeping to myself and trying to hold it together every single day after all the tragedy i endured.
She rips into me when i forget minor things and only forget them occasionally, like leaving a knife on the kitchen counter or a couple of coffee grains in the sink.
She calls me a slob, and says i am ungrateful for living here. She threatens to kick me out and make me homeless, i have been here since feb and she has said this to me 5 times already, all while screaming at me and insulting me.
I have nowhere else to go and i have been working endlessly to find other solutions to put me in a healthy situation that i can maintain.
It is horrible. It makes my addictions worse and sometimes it makes me want to commit suicide.
I told her this to ask her to stop and she screamed in my face that she doesn't care.
I have no idea how my own mother can be this cruel and abusive towards me. She has had her moments throughout my life where she has not been sane, rational, or kind to me - but nothing to the degree and frequency of what i am experiencing from her.
